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How I Got Lost and Realized I Was Found

8/21/2017

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​(WARNING: this post is the heaviest I will ever get. Most of my posts will be very light-hearted lol)
Since I was 13 I knew I wanted to be a performer. Specifically, be on Broadway. I suffer from a lot of social anxiety, so being able to escape myself and put all of my emotions into a character was exactly what I needed. I had my life figured out. I was going to go to school on the East Coast, get my BFA in musical theatre, move to New York and audition. Then I found straight acting and changed my mind. I got into an awesome BFA acting program in New Jersey and was so excited!! Then, life happened. *queue record scratch*. A few months before I was supposed to leave for college, I went through a break up that changed the course of my life. (relationships, am I right ladies?) I made a lot of mistakes in this relationship which caused me to not be mentally healthy when it ended. Thankfully, I had some amazing friends and family who helped me get into the mindset to go to school and move. So I did. I moved 3,000 miles away from my safety net, and let me tell you… that was hard BUT life-changing. I was fine at first. I was super distracted and met a ton of new people and had a lot to do in my classes. After about a month, my depression came back full force: ugly-crying myself to sleep, major anxiety attacks, mood swings, not wanting to talk to anyone, etc. Thank God for the program I was in and the people there. They got me through that semester, and I will always love them for that. Despite everything, I loved my classes and loved the people there. Being there made me fall more in love with art than I ever had been before. But, when I came home for Christmas I decided not to continue in school. I was sick and advised by family and doctors not to go back. So I trekked back 3,000 miles, had gall bladder surgery, and gained 30 pounds. Needless to say, it was a great time :). But I got to do 2 shows while home, and they saved me. Getting to leave all my stress at home and do two beautiful shows which helped me work through those emotions that I was pushing away saved me. If you’re interested in how theatre saved me, I will post more on that later! As I was home and trying to figure out what my next step was, I found myself being freed: I wasn’t stuck for four years at a school. I didn’t have every step of my life planned out anymore. Sure, it’s scary, but it’s also crazy beautiful! I could do anything I wanted! There was and is a huge weight lifted off my chest. There is something beautiful about being lost. That is where I found myself and my happiness.  I've fallen deeply in love with humans and learned to love every one of them, including their flaws. I've grown tremendously in my artistic and life endeavors in ways i didn't even know were possible, and I am now so excited for life.
And that, my dear friends, is how I ended up here. On my way to France. Preparing myself for what could possibly be the adventure of my lifetime :)
So I'm curious: 
1. What do you guys want to see come out of this blog?
2. Do you have similar stories?  
I'd love to hear from each and every one of you! Use the comment section below please! See ya soon, friends. 
6 Comments
Shawn
8/29/2017 07:46:44 pm

You are such a beautiful person. You have such a sweet soul and you are loved. Don't ever apologize for living out your new dream. God has given you this time to find Him in others. Love you, sweet young lady. Go get 'em.

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Jenifer
8/30/2017 09:49:56 pm

Thanks for your honestly. Your story just might help others! Can't wait to hear more about your adventures!

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Emily
8/31/2017 02:00:43 pm

I would like to see more tips on how to be as cool as you. Maybe like a "how to" section? Like "how to be as cool as Kami Hinds" ???

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James
9/3/2017 08:37:03 am

What I want from this blog is to learn more about my friend Kami and follow her amazing journey through life. I became an actor and director because I was fascinated by human stories and I still am fascinated, so my interest in this blog is to hear your story.

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Chris link
9/14/2017 10:38:33 am

I think that this should be as much about who you are as what you're doing. You are a very expressive writer and i look forward to following your adventures (In France and everywhere else you find yourself!)

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    Hi friends! I'm 20 and don't know what I'm doing with my life, so I'm embracing life full-force and moving to France for a bit. 

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